After watching/experiencing art that I find particularly moving or pleasing, there is an internal voice goading me to create. This voice is raspy and reeks of disappointment, but it persists. Sometimes it’s dominating and will not let me sleep until I make something. That something can and often does end up being pretty shitty in retrospect, but I must go through the flurry of paint or scratches on a page ( or more realistically, precisely placed pixels on this rectangle.) I’m not sure I have a point here, but this is an overall cliched experience that I cannot for the life of me stop doing.
I’ve bought tickets for my first international flight. I leave in just under a month. I’m terrified. I also know that I can be bold enough to step across that threshold into an entirely different space. It’s so crazy I can hardly keep still.
Q:I am seriously considering a trip to Ireland by myself in a few months. This would be my first international travel. Any tips for a person hoping to travel abroad?
GO. That’s my first piece of advice. If you have the opportunity to study in another country, or travel in general, DO IT. It’ll change your perspective in so many ways. I spent my junior year of college living in and traveling around Europe and it was such an enriching experience, and I did a fair amount of travel by myself. I recommend doing research on the place you want to go. When you’re there, talk to locals as much as you can. Eat the regional cuisine. Visit the touristy stuff, but ask people who live there where they like to go and check out those places. Be respectful of different cultures and customs. Be safe. Be smart. Wear comfortable walking shoes.
It’s 4:30 AM and I’m feeling anxious. I feel like I must create if I’m ever going to get anywhere. I need to write, I need to vlog, I need to figure out better ways to vlog, to promote myself, to build my audience, to improve improve improve. I guess these impulses are a constant in life, always wanting to be better better better. The sleeping issue certainly doesn’t go away.
I must figure out ways to create better.
People say not to discuss work on social media, but here goes. I’m telling myself it’s fine because my beefs are not with anyone I work with, but certain customer behaviors.
Pet Peeves of the drive thru:
-Saying you want an unsweetened iced tea, then asking for splenda in it
-Asking for assorted anything, then dictating a very specific order that isn’t assorted at all.
-Using subjective groupings for things. I’d like some sandwiches, a few coffees, etc. There is no way I can know what you want unless you tell me. Use your words.
-Never stating what size you would like.
-Knocking on the drive-thru window
-Saying you specifically do not want a combo, but ordering everything that goes into a combo.
-Arguing that you know product names better than I do. I work here. Trust me, I see them much more often than you do.
-Calling something not only by the wrong name, but by the name of something else we have. Getting mad at me for getting what you ordered but not what you meant is idiotic.
-Getting so many modifications on a product it becomes something else that we actually have.
-Plowing through an order at rapid speed, skipping over side items or drinks with combos, but getting frustrated when I ask what you want for those things.
-Saying “Okay, that’s all. You got it? Hello?” after you finished saying your order milliseconds after saying your last item. Pressing specific buttons takes a bit more skill than talking. Honestly any time someone says,”Hello?” while ordering, it is annoying.
-Assuming “We’ll be with you in a moment” means “Please start telling me your order right now.”
-Attempting to order at the drive thru window. I am not aware of a single establishment that does this regularly. People act so surprised when I tell them there is a speaker box. It’s pretty easy to see, you have to literally drive right by it to drive up to the window.
So please, members of the internet, treat drive-thru employees like they are also members of the human race, deserving of respect and patience. Have a nice day.
When all of my social media feeds stop updating, I panic for a moment that I am the sole survivor of some kind of apocalypse.
Shout your lungs out
These past few weeks I have been rededicating myself to being more consistent with my various feeds. I’ve been vlogging again, writing again, taking photos. I figure this tumblr should follow suit. Going to attempt to post regularly again. Have a wonderful day.
i need this for breakfast
I feel like this is everything Toni has ever wanted. Turtles, cereal, and pizza-shaped marshmallows.
I recall the crushing disappointment that accompanied the first bite of this cereal, when you discover that the pizza-shaped marshmallows were not pizza-flavored.
Not pizza-flavored, but it is radical tasting. Michelangelo would not steer me wrong. Raph, maybe.
May 2013 be the best year yet
I mean, like, in all of human history.